not so happy

Undisputed noise suddenly comes into my ears hearing it annoys me. Five in the morning it was my sister who was ranting like nowhere it was about the fan where supposed to be in their room but she failed to see fan in their room, her ranting doesn’t stop there she was also saying like “ Bakit na iinitan yung mga bata, bakit walang electric fan?! Sila nga nag babayad ng kuryente, ganyan pa mga ugali nyo!? Ang kakapal naman ng muka nyo?!” (Why do the children doesn’t have more electric fan? Did you not know that it was hot?! They pay your electric bills and yet you show nothing in return?! Effrontery! )

It doesn’t stop there, she upbraid that “ about the money money money and money the way she budgets all about money.” That makes me answering her saying “Bakit pati ako nasama dyan? Alam ko may electric fan naman, tsaka Bakit nanaman nasama yung pera dyan!?”(Why did you also scolded me? As far as I know there was a fan also what is the connection between money and the fan!?) I didn’t know where the other fan went the night before they sleep but as far as I know there was a wall fan in their room but she said ”that wasn’t enough my kids, they shouldn’t feel any warm”. She insists that I should blame my brother not her because of his negligence of not putting the fan inside the room after drinking alcoholic beverages. Yet she also scolded ME as if I know where that fan went. It was all about the fan and her heroine for us. For me she does not have the right to generalize people generalizing makes judging innocent.

One thing is for sure there will be no working student I will earn and save first before going to college and that’s life I will accept it positively. I cannot accept any help from her she’s way too proud for herself, she even cannot accept our imperfection, comparing her high school days with us. If she can manage to say that things, what more if I’m studying because of her help? I can’t really imagine. L Who knows? I know God will.